Currently Listening Feedback By Jurassic 5 see related

Not So Suddenly, Everything Has Changed

Currently Reading Aloud: Voices from the Nuyorican Poets Cafe By Nicole Blackman see related

Sir Kirby. I was knighted.

Kirby (oww oww) n.- This nigga aint been on here for ages, possibly since the creation of the charred electromagnetic spectrum, which reveals that human life and knowledge is only 10% of REALITY...

Fur Masheed (For Marlena (in Kirbonics))

Let's all grow some wings, yeah?

The fact that you can depend on great memories depends on how you REALLY felt during those memories and how you feel now, and whether or not they were righteous, completely idealized in the mind, or somewhere in between. I hold onto those memories because i thought and i felt like i knew that they were something i put my everything into.  i hope you realize some things marlena. know me again, or would ya care to? The only pain that memories of you brings is the fact that i dont know what you are getting at, nor do i understand how you can do those things when we had what we had. but HEY! i gotta move on, right? Me and you are different people. 

the first thing you gotta do is prepare for having me in your mind and in your life and then we'll get somewhere. it was never so much of a reach for me, but it was more of creating something within you to learn to put your negativity away or your fears, or your denial, and just accept me and try in action, in speech, in truth and in love.

so here is where we ripped out our own wings: I had to refrain from saying things. We both minded arguing with each other. And you didnt like to lose time over talking to me when it conflicted with you and your friends. that was all i got from you, meaning all i had to look forward to is the ability to talk to you over the phone or in person, but i couldnt have either because of your scheduling, and when i would talk to you, you were confused about how i was speaking. it was not out of disrespect (i felt disrespected, maybe more forgotten, something old, like that velveteen rabit). i would yell, but because of our failures and inadequacites, especially when i knew we could fix yours. but its hard to tell you things like that because its hard for you to take.  and im sorry i said it in the way of a hellfire sermon; i cannot convict. it is up to you to learn that your ways get nowhere. im not afraid of committing myself to receiving something more in the long run. im searching for closure, and it will come with talking to you, but i know your life has changed in your mind so much that there is no "Josh, my best friend and lover" anymore, and now i know that full closure comes when i come to know someone as my next lover. I am not someone who needs a woman to be by my side, because i enjoy myself when i am alone, yes i pine for someone, but i do not base my love life on availability and the fleeting feelings that may come from a physical defect. It comes in virtuosic patience, true passion, and purity. No doubt we were awesome, we just have different standards that can affect who we are later on in life. 

but you dont have to trust me nor do you have have to give time to me. everyone knows that, but everyone also knows who i am because they accept me, and they want me, and not just cause theyre lonely.

My life is so full right now, even though i've got gigantic voids to fill.  I'm growing wings. I'm becoming who i want to be. Thank you all.

Shout outs to all of those that read this: i Miss you all, and yes, that includes YOU.

Currently Listening De-Loused in the Comatorium By The Mars Volta Cicatriz E.S.P see related

Kirby (sometimes likes to be referred to as josh) n. - I got a devotional bible. It's Xtreme.

Life's Simple Pleasures

Instructions: Name 10 of life's simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick 10 people to do the same. Try to be original and creative; try not to use things that someone else has already used.

1. Listening, just listening first hand to all that surrounds me.

2. Being held, or kicked, or punched, or slapped, or bitten, or pinched with love.

3. Creating something out of nothing and running with it.

4. Notes, Chords, Appregios, Flams, Backbeats, Fills, Scales, Progressions 

5. Rice, beans, and chuletas nigga!                                                                      

6. Not having to hear my mother's angry voice.

7. Being there for people who truly appreciate you

8.  Seeing her smile                                                                                                      

9. The smell of freshly installed flooring or freshly cut grass

10. Farting due to too much laughter

Continue this.

Currently Listening Ocean Breathes Salty By Modest Mouse see related

Kirby (the origins of) n.- salsa para bailar

cet amour faux: master kirby
KirbyDude98: yes my minion
KirbyDude98: what is it you wish?
cet amour faux: i wish to know the origin of thy name
KirbyDude98: funny
KirbyDude98: cuz i saw the love which begot the name just this morning
KirbyDude98: sit, listen.
KirbyDude98: so this morning ma nigga tony came over and we was on our way to the bus stop, hurredly and sh*t cuz the freakin bus was like 50 meters or so away.
KirbyDude98: this had been after tony and i came from the currency exchange, late for our departure that should have happened a few minutes before.
KirbyDude98: new fun day passes in hand, tony and i ran towards the bus which had waved us in passing to the next intersection. 
KirbyDude98: then it happened.
cet amour faux: =-O
KirbyDude98: she opened the car door and a "Kirby?!" forced it's way out of the passenger's side and caught my ear.  flabberghasted, yes flabberghasted, and slightly concerned i turned my way towards the sound and immediately i saw her.
cet amour faux: flabberghasted!
KirbyDude98: Melody.  her name, like mine, has stuck in my mind since the grade school, when we used to hang out everyday, in and out of school, chatting about the useless nonsense which plagues young minds.  the moment flashed me by: we were standing outside in the chill of the winter, holding eachother to remain warm as the school bells rang to remind us that school would be starting soon and hot breakfast had stopped being served and should be thouroughly consumed within the next 5 minutes.  My cheeks were a rosy pink.  Melody, with her musical voice implied that then i looked exactly like Kirby, the round cute and often pink nintendo character as i stood next to her and our friends in the cold.  we all laughed and i smiled, though slightly offended, yet the name was fitting. 
KirbyDude98: enough people had been there for the name to catch on and it stuck.  those friends that caught on followed me through Lane, introducing me to their friends as Kirby and not Joshua Antonio Torres as my mother called me prior to my Kirby engagement.  yes, she started calling me Kirby too.
KirbyDude98: soon teachers and friends, and even myspace fans and internet pages alike would know me as Kirby, and the legacy is only possible because of this one girl.
cet amour faux: it carried on into the band
KirbyDude98: this went through my mind in one tenth of a second and as i appraoched the car i screamed "Melody!" in praise for the sight for sore eyes she was at that moment.  I rapidly briefed her about where i live and how i miss her and that i would soon talk to her and catch up on our lives, together, but for now i had a bus that needed me on it. 
KirbyDude98: and that is my name.  yes, the band was also a major part.
KirbyDude98: since there was another joshua in the band, i defintely needed a name that would stick and be totally unrelated to Josh
KirbyDude98: Kirby fit, since the band members were used to calling me that anyways.  but we made it stick a little more.  WE also applied adhesive to that Kirby name which i tote around so proudly.
KirbyDude98: thank you Carlos. and yes, thank you Melody.
KirbyDude98: like the story.
cet amour faux: 8-)
KirbyDude98: ?
KirbyDude98: haha
cet amour faux: yeah
KirbyDude98: long as hell
cet amour faux: made for tv movie
KirbyDude98: effin script....lol

REMINDER: I'm looking for:

Sabian AAX series Studio Crash

Sabian HHX Studio Crash Cymbal

Gretsch Drums Catalina Ash Fusion Shell Pack

DW DP602C Double Pedal

Aquarian Super Kick II Drumhead

Remo Pinstripe Value Pack with Emperor X Coated Snare Head

Vic Firth John Dolmayan Signature Drumsticks

*Zildjian Fixed Wire Brushes

*RTOM Moongel Dampening Gels  MISSION COMPLETED

*Gibraltar Hi-Hat Drop Clutch SC-DC

*Pearl H820W Hi-Hat Stand

* means completely optional but thouroughly looked into and possibly best

Currently Listening Wolfmother By Wolfmother see related

Kirby (to unhand my sausages) v. - got my physical done yesterday afternoon...

...I've been up since

Enough said...

Lord, hear my prayers... Father in heaven, I pray for those close to me, Lord who are dealing with the circumstances of living in the world we live in today, Father God, and I pray you watch over those who have come over any sickness in their bodies, their minds, their spirits, Lord.  No pain will ever be too much for us to bear, God, for you know each and every one of us, and I would love for you to keep this in their hearts and let them know it is from you, God, so that they could have strength in any way to continue on and be the people they need to be.  Have mercy on everyone who has ever experienced Love, God, in any form, for they are forgiven today of their infidelities for You or for their lovers, God, but show them that they too have another chance at proving they have learned and overcome.  strength and wisdom, Jesus.... amen.